Hello ....
Well then do not really know where to start if the trouble is more than good. But no more.
few weeks ago I have problems balance, I hardly move or bone in my house all day I spend in bed, I have trouble eating or swallowing call, and makes me even more talk.
I have problems with God even though I know not and I stand firm in my beliefs and now more than ever, I feel they forgot about me, I know he has his plan and that but I can not understand, has a very coded language . I know that in his great wisdom that passes for something or for something more well, but I can not understand.
not feel like I mourn when I can not eat or write with a pen, when I have and I can hardly walk. But not my body like that refuses to mourn and finish line but I was laughing so good little by little I lived with my evil that do not become a nightmare. Angela Carrasco would say "no one is fighting the battle"
On the other hand I am a teacher turning things to me so defeated I commend my family and that is something I have and unfortunately few have, have the touch Perfect humor and strength that makes me get up every day without talking about the love they give me daily. Well that health may fail me but I have everything I love all my family and my friends ... do not complete the trio ... the necessary money ... We do not stray
, I tell you I'm fine and recovering but unfortunately not. Now I've been reassured, and increasingly more confirmed that from the beginning I repeat: nothing to do with my actions, my cells. This is a discussion that I have daily with God, I did something wrong? And in the Catholic or Western culture, not all are faults and things we have to pay. We grow up believing that, and when things happen like this we crashed.
is a complicated philosophical discussion which truth do not pay much attention now. Before, if I kill wondering why, why, and just understand that my cells gave teenage rebellion which I did not give me. What worries me now is that these cells are as persistent as me, not to mention stubborn and intense.
Well I'm stretching, but I feel not talked to you in a while, as they did me wrong my time isolate.
What I say to you is greater than the love that show me every day, my brothers, my uncles, my cousins \u200b\u200band friends. Maybe that keeps me going and really do not know why I'm still alive, but something will. My mission is not over think.
I tell you I'm living on the beach, my problems are what I eat fish every day, I itchy sand. But it is not, this is my reality and I accept it and do not like.
I just hope this happens to be my last test and difficult life, I never want to deal with these problems as me is in existence, though we're friends with sadness, is my only friend that I do not want a permanent relationship.
Also, I must tell you I learned to live without illusion, and although it sounds terrible I think it was my best decisions lately, do what I do without expecting anything in return. Do not believe I'm going to heal or I'll die just do what I have, of course as Harrisin Gerge says "while there is life there is hope I have not become a heartless character in the background I hope everything is resolved, but do not do much fuss about it as before.
Well that's kind of what I feel now, I regret not having written before but was committed Error feeling sorry for myself and no.
From you I learned little in the last days, how is everything? How are your dreams? Your goals? The truth is that I had a period where I forget everything and everyone to you, sorry, really I'm sorry.
Every day you wake up and look in the mirror and do not say anything, I see you teñiste hair, are a little fatter. How goes it's palsy?
Sometimes I see the picture you take with you and your brothers for over a year, makes me want to mourn, do not deny it, since that time no see.
I really love you and am with you, just that there are times when I can not help noticing just me. Porfa
answer me quickly, remember that I love you Diego. Medeles
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